Asia

Asia, Sometimes I wish you could see yourself through my eyes because I don’t think you realize how special you are to me. I see how much you carry, how much you give to everyone else, and how you keep pushing even when I know you’re tired. Baby, you don’t always have to be the strong one with me. You can just be you. I know losing your mama changed so much for you, and I know there are parts of that hurt I’ll never fully understand. I wish I could take some of that pain away, or at least be there to hold you when it feels heavy. I can’t replace what you’ve lost, and I hate that more than you know. I just want you to know that you don’t have to go through every hard moment by yourself. And bae, I know this distance makes everything harder. I know grief can make it difficult to talk, connect, or even know what to say. I’m trying to understand that because I love you, and I know you’re carrying something I can’t fix. But I also want you to know that I’m still here. I still love you, and I still care about us. I don’t need you to give me more than you have, but I do need to feel like there’s still a place for me in your heart, even if all you can give me sometimes is a little reassurance or a small moment together. I’m not asking you to be okay before you love me. I’m not asking you to put your grief aside for us. I just want us to remember that we’re still in this together, even when life feels heavy and neither of us has all the words. I love your heart, your strength, your stubborn self, and even the way you put up with my goofy, extra, sometimes annoying ass. I love that I get to be myself with you. And even when we get on each other’s nerves, you’re still my girl. Still my Big Daddi. Still somebody I want to keep choosing. Bae, I don’t need perfection, and I don’t need you to have all the answers. I just want us to keep trying to show up for each other in the ways we can. I want to be your safe place, but I also want to feel safe loving you. I want to know that even when you’re hurting, you still want me beside you. I hope when you hear this song, you hear more than how much I love you. I hope you hear me saying that I see you, I’m proud of you, I’m not giving up on us, and I still believe in everything we’re building. And if there’s one thing I want you to remember, it’s this: You don’t have to carry everything alone, bae. I’m here beside you. I just need to know that, even in the middle of everything you’re going through, you still want me beside you, too. I love you, always. ❤️